I recently joined Facebook. It has been so much fun connecting to other like-minded folk. I have received many emails from people asking me personal questions. When I give readings I often talk to the person for a couple of minutes, it seems that by hearing their voice I get a stronger connection with their energy. I thought that I read people by connecting to their energy from hearing their voice.

I guess this isn’t the case. I had a young woman write to me from Australia and I immediately started to receive information for her. I looked at her picture and linked up with her energy – like I do when I do remote healing work.

See our email exchange below:

Lesanne

November 20 at 10:00am

Hi A,
Thanks so much for the email. It sounds like you are in a real place of transition. I commend you for digging deep and looking for answers.
I connect to people’s energy from hearing their voice. I have never tried to do it via the internet. I wish that I knew how to use the internet to give readings to people in far away lands.
I am actually a professional medium and normally charge for readings but I am feeling compelled to connect for you. I have never read someone by their photo but I will see what comes up when I try to connect with you without your voice:
There are two energies around you 1) older male feels like a father or grandfatjer. he may have smoked pipes? feels kinda tall – not a small man. maybe died of heart attack or had trouble breathing (feel stuff in chest). he feels very loving, protective. I am seeing water/boats…maybe liked to fish?
2) younger female. brown hair (?). she keeps showing me silky brown hair. did she love her hair? i can’t quite understand what she is conveying about her passing – maybe was diagnosed with something but didn’t live long? feels like there was a real surprise factor. sister-friend feeling? feeling something in my stomach area. she was funny. you two would laugh together. sending so much love
~~~
your turmoil is around relationship…two of them. feels like parental and partner.
I don’t see the partner relationship working out based on what I am feeling now. He is young emotionally. Doesn’t communicate well. Jealous? Loves you but will try to push down your natural openness and love of life. He realizes it and feels bad but can’t help himself. If you chose to leave him you will be heartbroken at first but will really grow from the experience. It won’t be long before you meet someone (a little older) who will be such a good fit and absolutely adore you. If you stay in relationship the dynamic won’t shift very much. He is not ready to grow in this way. You are learning to love yourself.
Parents…. is this with your father? stepfather? You have an old block.. resentment of some sort??? This will work out with time. Doesn’t understand you but will grow to accept. Very proud of you although can’t say it very well.
Ok…. my baby is calling.
I have no idea if I was able to connect with your energy or if this is for my next client. Feels like it was for you. Please let me know. I hope it helps.
Sending you so much support in who you are. Times feel tough right now but you will get through this – it is very short lived. Wish we could talk on the phone…
Many blessings,
L

A few nights ago I had been doing some casual reading before bed and I read a little about Merv Griffin. As my eyes became heavier I decided to close my magazine and take some time to meditate and then connect with Spirit.

At this point on my journey I am able to open and close at will. It is very rare that someone comes through unless I have consciously invited this type of exchange. That night I opened my energies to the higher realm and hadn’t intended on talking to anyone who had departed the earth plane.

Much to my surprise a very strong spirit showed up. He was somewhat intense in energy, gruff, well meaning, straight to the point. He felt strong in a muscular way, had an accent, and had red hair. He told me his name was Melm or Merm. It felt like he had a message for someone but I didn’t know who it was for – I assumed it would be for a client this week. I also thought perhaps my subconscious mind was bringing in the name Merv from the reading I had just been doing but he assured me his name was Melm. I had never heard of such a name and shooed him away telling him to come back later when I was reading for whomever it was he wanted to contact.

I was recently having a conversation with a friend and had admitted that I had had only one psychic reading in my lifetime. She mentioned that she thought that this was a little odd and felt that I should have more readings done for me, likening it to how a psychologist is required to go to therapy when in school.

Needless to say, I scheduled a reading by a psychic named John Kane www.johnkanepsychic.com
He and I ended up getting along very well and my reading turned into a get-to-know-you type conversation. I asked him how his paranormal experiences began for him. He told me that he was a graphic designer and that he and some coworkers made a ouji board and started contacting spirit. He then told me that a spirit came through who called himself Melm!!! I know I shouldn’t be surprised but I couldn’t believe it. I stopped him and asked him if Melm was a gruff fellow with red hair. He said “yes, exactly. He was gruff. He had red hair, he was from Scotland….”

It was fun to connect with John and to let him know that this spirit is indeed still around him. John is a very approachable and warm man. He gave me a great reading, hitting the nail on the head numerous times. Besides being psychic, he is also opening up to animal spirit communication. He has been doing this work for a very long time. If you are interested in connecting with a deceased animal or having a psychic reading I do recommend him. It is fun to mix it up and get a different type of reading from a different practitioner – John’s your man.

Blessings,
Lesanne

I gently awoke in the middle of the night feeling and thinking about my statement “there is only love.” My littlest one is stirring and will be waking to the world soon so I jotted down some notes about my experience and thought process:

i feel/sense the love, peace, understanding when connected to spirit

I get glimpses of it here on earth – this is what i refer to when i try to explain that I feel like I am falling in love with God, and that God also loves me (amazing!)

this peace and love is our essence

it is available to us now and it is our core

our personality is not our essence – it is deeper/more complicated/bigger and much simpler than that

this love, peace and understanding is the Universal Source in us – our truth

it is you
It is me
It is God

I only have a few minutes to write this so this will be a rough entry. I had an interesting experience with one of my clients today that I want to note… (I jotted down some notes in my journal so I may come back to fill in some details)

I have been doing healings with this client for a few months*. I have wondered, although never asked, if perhaps she did not know anyone that has passed on, as no one has ever showed up to communicate with her and this is a bit unusual.

Today, during the hands on healing part of our session, a couple of spirits who wanted to connect with her made their presence known. I felt two very strong male energies and they were both communicating to me at the same time. Because they showed up when I was doing a healing with her, and b/c time was an issue, I asked for specific names so that I could ask Julia if these spirits were indeed for her.

I heard “Paul” and he told me that there was a “Bryce” sounding name associated with him. The other energy was really trying to give me his name but I could not get it – this is mostly what inspired me to write this entry. Because I knew I was not getting his name – it felt so fast I couldn’t even get the first letter I asked one of my guides, Christopher, to help me.

Christopher is a guide that came to me in my development circle a couple of months ago. I have called on him in the past but he has only come to me a couple of times, both times when I was sitting in my circle not when I was with clients. When I first met him he told me that he would help me with names. He said that he would write them out for me so that I could see them clearly. When I couldn’t get the name of this particular spirit I called him and asked for assistance. While I didn’t feel Christopher, I did immediately start to see letters. Each letter was written individually and then disappeared. The letters looked as if they were written in big fat glowing yellow energy – this is not at all what I had expected. I saw the name “John” spelled out.

I thanked Christopher and then told the two male energies that I would connect with them when the healing was done. They passed on a little more info and left. I felt that one of the men died from a heart attack (chest pressure and couldn’t breathe). I also heard “car accident” but felt that was mentioned in relation to someone else (bryce?).

When I checked in with my client she told me that Paul was a close friend who died of a heart attack and that her husband’s middle name was John. It was immediately clear that these were the spirits who were trying to talk to her as their energies became very strong again.

Like before, they were both coming through at the same time. I asked them to please take turns. Paul came through first.

The first thing he did was make clear that he was the one that died from a heart attack (felt it in my chest). Then he wanted me to describe to Julia the way he felt about her. He was showing me how much he cared for her. He expressed a feeling of more than “just friends” but not romantic. It had a slight feeling of possessiveness (in a good way). He obviously cared for her deeply. When I shared this with her she mentioned that he was a bit older than her and he responded and joked about it – “not that much older.” (not in this order) He showed me a pear tree at her friend’s house. He showed me where they lived in relation to one another geographically and how they would both travel to meet and do a group type thing together. He mentioned that he had married a woman with children from another marriage and that two lived with them but three didn’t – then he showed me that they moved out. He made a joke about marrying a younger woman. He felt funny with a lighthearted sarcasm – I struggled with explaining how this felt to my client and she summed it up in one word “rascal”. He let me know that when he passed there was nothing left unspoken between them. He just wanted to take the opportunity to send his love to her. Julia confirmed all of the info – however she is not yet sure what the significance is of the pear tree.

Julia’s husband came through and he was showing me a man. He was showing me his hair and I heard that he looked like Julia. He then keep showing me an enlarged chest. I was describing the vision I was getting to Julia. She mentioned it could be her son. I was not hearing anything – in this case I actually asked Julia her son’s name and when she told me it did not resonate at all. This spirit was not able to give me names through sound for some reason, or I was not able to hear them for some reason. When the name didn’t resonate he started to show me the picture of the man again and the energy was intense. He was making the chest big again, and then he made the legs disappear and distorted the chest. I told Julia what I was seeing and asked if her son was maybe missing a leg or had trouble with them. She said, “no but he has a pigeon chest”. The energy immediately spiked and then dissipated and I knew that he was indeed showing me his son. He showed me distance as if he had been dead for a long time and did not raise his son. He told me that his son throughout his life has talked to him and that he either is really reaching out to him now or he will be soon – and he wants his son to know he is there.

He then showed me the time around his death. He showed me the room he was in prior to his death (hospital like) and that there was a mother energy around with Julia. Julia confirmed that his mom was there too. He conveyed that there was tension between Julia and the mom. At this moment the mom showed up. She gave me the initials to her name and then described what took place between them. She came for to apologize to Julia and explain how she now understood the choices she made.

I then see Julia moving away with her son and the mom staying in the same place. The husband is back. He conveys more info, some of it personal so I will not mention it here.

Julia confirmed everything her husband and mother-in-law had to saw and received healing from the experience. It was clear that her husband primarily showed up for her son. She was able to pass on the message to her son, and it proved to be very timely and healing for him.

This was a good solid reading with a lot of evidential info. I am continually amazed and awed with the beautiful healings that take place. I am also continually soothed and excited by the fact that there is only love.

Thank you God.

*Please note that I only do intuitive guidance readings (psychic readings) for a client every 6 to 12 months – I schedule healing sessions based on what the client’s guides say and so far it has been as many as three times a week and as few as a just one session.

I was speaking to Michael the other evening about my journey. We have had many conversations about my abilities, my intentions, my desires, my ego, and my life’s work.

As you can imagine, this journey has always felt so much bigger than me. And through my experiences I have moved from a Skeptic, to a Believer, and eventually, to standing in my absolute Knowing and Faith.

While I am a rather self assured woman, I also have my areas of sensitivity (ego?). For instance, I have always prided myself in being a highly ethical, trustworthy, straight-shooter – someone that people know they can trust.

These qualities, among others, have been important to me. What I hadn’t realized until I started doing this work is just how important I have made other people’s perceptions of me. So not only was it important to have tremendous integrity, it was important that others knew this about me. (yes, ego!)

I can not think of another journey that would personally challenge me in this way more. Most people wouldn’t describe a psychic as someone they would immediately consider trustworthy or ethical. So, to stand in my truth and declare myself a ‘psychic medium’ was a bit of a journey for me.

I have been receiving the message from my guides for years that I am healer and that I have the ability to help many people heal by sharing my experiences and abilities. Of course I have known that connecting people with their loved ones who have passed over provides tremendous healing – I just wasn’t ready to offer my services to the world or declare that the survival of consciousness does indeed exist.

While working with Michael I realized how much my fear based ego was at play in my shyness about the abilities I possess and my experiences. With this realization came the understanding that I was standing in the way of God’s light and love. I decided to ask for help and to surrender my ego, releasing the way in which my healing took place over to God. I prayed and released this part of my journey to Spirit asking for healing and understanding.

After my realization and release a considerable shift took place within me. I still have moments of shyness but more often than not I feel ready to step into this role of messenger. I am more than willing to be of service. I want nothing more than to share God’s love and truth. I want the light of God to clearly shine through me. I want to shout off of the rooftops that spirit consciousness survives and there is only LOVE!!!

I know that this feels like such a simple statement, but please really feel this.

When we die we move into a new dimension where THERE IS ONLY LOVE!

How can I possibly keep this to myself!?!

Imagine if I can help one more grieving mother know that not only is her child still able to hear her, that her child is in a peaceful place surrounded in love and understanding.

And so my friends, I willing step into this role as God’s Messenger and I am here to tell you…

THERE IS ONLY LOVE!

Amen

I have given some very interesting readings this week.

One thing that I wanted to note happened in yesterday’s reading. My sitter’s mom showed up and was sharing information. She had acknowledged their life together and that some of her choices had really hurt her daughter. She was apologizing and letting her daughter know what type of affect these decisions had on her and how she could heal herself from them now. At one point the mom mentioned that she planned “to get it right next time” and I had the sense that they would have another life time together where they were mom and daughter once again.

It was the first time that I can remember receiving a message about a future life time….

It poses some very interesting questions for me:
How would she know that they would have another life time together?
Who decides what the dynamic will be?
Is the dynamic based on the lessons learned and not learned? Did my sitter’s higher self already agree to another life time as this woman’s daughter?
Did I misinterpret what she was saying?

I have started writing questions down that I would like answered from those on the other side. It is an interesting list that I will share at some point. If you have any questions that you can think of email them to me: diveintospirit at gmail dot com

Blessings

This is a verbatim transcript between a father and a daughter. This woman came to me for an intuitive reading. Before she even showed up this energy arrived. After she received her intuitive message her father came back again.

Some readings are much more precise, some are a little more vague. I feel that this is a pretty good example of contact from a loved one…

ME:… do you know a Jeremy or John? Maybe late…

Ariel: Yes, that is who I asked for… late what?

Me: Late forties or fifties…

<<I was seeing this man now. Physically he looked this age. He looked young and vibrant. This was a good time in his life. He was not wearing a shirt – he was sticking out his hairy chest and standing in front of ships/boats.>>

Me:It feels… um…how old was he when… is that who asked for to come in?

Ariel: Yes

Me: What is his name?

Ariel: John

Me: Ok, my whole body just tingled. How old was he when he passed on?

Ariel: He was, I think he was in his sixties, sixty-five?

Me: Did you meet him when he was in his forties?

<<something feels important about the time he is showing me – he feels healthy and vital. maybe the best time of his life?>>

Ariel: He is my father.

Me: Ok, so just let me tell you what I am seeing. Did he have anything to do with boats?

<<He is showing me himself in front of the harbor of ships/boats again – shirt off, chest sticking out.>>

Ariel: <<laughs>> He was in the Navy!

Me: He is showing me a picture of boats with him. And did he have kind of a hairy chest?

Ariel: Yes

Me: OK, for some reason he is showing me his hairy chest

<<I laugh. He feels like a funny guy.>>

Ariel: <<laughter>> “oh daddy”

Me: OK, so I heard “baby girl.”

<<energy didn’t deplete – felt like I got the words wrong. feeling stayed the same>>

Me: Ok, just let me see. Hold on.

<<now he is showing me blue eyes>>

Me: Did he have blue eyes?

Ariel: Yes

Me: He is showing me blue eyes and ooohhh there is so much love there. He is just sending so much love.

Me: Ok, so were you kinda daddy’s girl?

<<I am feeling this “that’s my girl” feeling still. A feeling of deep connectedness with Ariel>>

Ariel: I wanted to be but there was a lot of conflict. He and I both were very strong and we fought a lot.

Me: He is just saying…<<I was getting that same feeling>>… no, he is saying you were always daddy’s girl…I keep getting this baby girl feeling…were you the youngest?

Ariel: No, I was the oldest.

Me:Maybe it was the first born..no…it’s…no… hold on…let me ask him to say it. ok, he is giving me the words, let me see… <<the energy was so strong. he was trying to convey something with feeling and I wasn’t getting it right>>

Me: So it is “darling girl” <<energy let up a bit but not completely>. <<I then heard..>> “you will always be my darling girl”

Me: Did he smoke pipes?

Ariel: Not that I…

Me: I am getting a flavor in my mouth <<also experienced a good feeling and felt pipe smoking>>. Yah, I am getting tabacco-y but it is not cigarettes, like a cigar or pipe flavor.

Ariel: No, he smoked cigarettes more than he did a pipe or

Me: It feels more earthy than cigarettes

Ariel: Yah, I don’t know what that would be

Me: There is definitely smoke. It may be cigarettes <didn’t feel that it was>. Did he really love them? It doesn’t feel like um…<<energy shifts strongly – he is showing me his chest again and then I feel the pressure in my heart area>

Me: Did he die from heart?

Ariel: Yes

Me: Yah, ok, now he is showing me his heart..he is putting pressure on my heart, he is wanting me to know how he passed on. Hold on ok….<<I am seeing three energies – siblings>>

Me: Do you have three other siblings.

Ariel: No

Me: Hmm.. I am seeing three. Like there are three of you.

Ariel: Oh, there are three of us. My sister and then I have a half brother.

Me: Ok. I am getting three.

<energy spiked on half brother. felt distance around him>

Me: For some reason he has some concern, or he wanting, around the half brother. There is some kind of
<<felt distance again>>…Do you talk to your half brother?

Ariel: No. His mother was. It was a very different family.

Me: Ok <father continues to express and show concern about half brother>> There is something about your half brother, and maybe his wife. <<didn’t say it out loud b/c energy was moving fast but felt that there was or will be loss?>>Your father is showing concern around it. He is sending love there.

Ariel: ok, I haven’t talked to my brother in years actually.

Me: I wouldn’t be surprised if somehow you guys are connected again soon. You may find out about him or something. There is something going on with him.

Ariel: I can ask my mother. She is in touch with him.

Me: Ok, good. Let me see what else comes up. <<I started to see the top of a balding head>>

Me: Did he go balding or something, a little bit?

Ariel: My father, did he go balding?

Me: yah…

Ariel: yes.

Me: Ok, for some reason he is showing me part of a bald head

Ariel: Yah, his hair started to thin. I think he was upset about it.

<<I laugh out loud>> <<The feeling I get makes me laugh. This feels funny to him some how. He shows me his chest again.>>

Me: He shows me his chest again, he is sticking it out.

Ariel: Oh that is funny.

Me: He is laughing again. Was he kind of funny?

Ariel: Yah

Me: He has this sarcastic feel, a deep sarcastic laugh, like he can laugh at himself. He is laughing at that. He
laughed at that.

Ariel: So what does he think of me and all my boyfriends? All these men I have in my life? What does he think of that?

Me: I don’t know what this means, maybe it means something to you, I heard, “oh kitty kat.” He is kind of laughing again. There is no judgment.

Ariel: Oh good

Me: He understands that you would expect him to have judgment but there isn’t now. It’s not like that where he is. There is just understanding.

<<energy is now coming strong and fast – I am working hard to slow it down enough to get it and communicate it – now it feels like the message is going to come>>

Me: Ohhhh. Ok, so there is something that he is really sorry about. There was a misunderstanding between you two. I am feeling like there is a disconnect, like an inability to communicate. Ohhhh, you were really hurt. Ok, so there is this feeling of you being really judged by him and him being short tempered and really inaccessible. Ok, not short tempered but..hold on… what is it… curt, not allowing, like you were trying to be more communicative and he wouldn’t allow you to share your feelings. And there is this frustration… Is that resonating at all?

Ariel: Yes, it is.

Me: He is so sorry. This really hurt you. This was really hard for you. And I am feeling like in the end maybe you reached out and he wouldn’t allow it in. Is that correct?

Ariel: I felt there was a healing in the end

Me: <<energy dissipates>> Ok, that was it, the energy dissipates. So that was it. Maybe it wasn’t so much about the end and that there was a healing in the end. He is saying sorry.

Ariel: It was painful.

Me: He gets that now.

Ariel: Why was he like that?

Me: let me ask, hold on, ok…

Me: So I am feeling that it was just his way, that it was part of his journey and his path and he is seeing now how much more he could have loved you fully and he is so sorry for that. <<energy intense again>> He is asking me to make clear though that he is really happy and peaceful now. There is no feeling of guilt or regret, only, its not like he is feeling, um…. He is wanting to heal that with you now so you can more fully love each other now.

Me:He wants you to know how happy he is. It is important for me to say to you right now that he hasn’t been hurting but that he can see…because he hears you…you connect to him and he wants you to be able to express fully to him and to be your joy fully to him because he gets it now.

Ariel: Thank you.

<<energy dissipates feels so peaceful>>

Me: Oh he is happy…ok.

Me: I think he smoked pipe. Since this is coming up again maybe ask your mom about it.

Ariel: Oh he did. At one time in his life he did.

Me: He really liked it and he gave it up but he didn’t want to.

Ariel: That’s right. That’s totally right on.

Me: K. So he is bringing it up again.

Ariel: Isn’t that funny that he would allude to that. It is not something that I connect with him but it is true.

Me: Maybe it is something to say to your mom or something. It felt important to him. It was important to him. And I am seeing you around water for some reason, like a river. Do you go to a river often or something?

Ariel: No, I think of it. I like rivers.

Me: Well, there is something between you two and rivers. I get the sense that he is with you during that time. Maybe you are going to one soon. I keep seeing a river and it is now. It’s not like you are young or something. Your energy is now. Yah… I keep seeing it. Just keep it in mind. It might have some significance for you and you are going to get it. And maybe he is going to make his presence known to you. And he can hear you and you can feel him now.

Ariel: ok

Me: He is pulling back. Is there anything else?

Ariel: No. That was nice. That was nice to have that encounter with him. And I have always felt like a bit of an unfinished chapter in my life…

Kelly found me through the internet. Prior to our session, I knew nothing about her other than she lost a son…

Kelly called me a couple of minutes after 7 my time. I was feeling a little nervous b/c I knew she had lost a son and was deep in the grieving process. It can especially feel like a huge responsibility when reading for someone who is so raw. I was concerned that if her son did not show up it would add to her grief. I said a prayer asking her son to PLEASE make contact for her sake – I requested this last night too. Last night when I requested this I felt and saw (in my mind’s eye) a woman.

This woman came to me at the appointed time of my and Kelly’s phone reading, and when I thought that maybe Kelly was a no show, this woman told me Kelly would call. She told me Kelly was feeling nervous but that she would call. A few minutes later my phone rang.

Kelly and I talked for a couple of minutes. She told me that she was nervous. The woman showed up immediately.

Here is a rough transcript of what was said:

Me: I have a woman here. I see her wearing a hot pink terry cloth bathrobe and fuzzy slippers. She is standing in a kitchen with linoleum floors. She is smoking, a lot. She also has a cup of coffee, I think. Do you know who this is?

Kelly: Yes, my mom.

Me: My chest is tight. I get the feeling she died with something to do with her lungs or she smoked a lot – a lot. Is this correct?

Kelly: Yes.

Me: She is with a little boy. It is NOT your son. I get the feeling that he was her son or grandson, definitely not your son. He is young. Did she have a young child die? Does this make sense to you?

Kelly: Yes

Me: His name is Marc. She wants you to know this and that she is happy. She is taking care of him now and they are both very happy.

Me: She also has a man behind her. He is not coming forward. It is your father. Has your father passed and was he a big man?

Kelly: Yes

Me: Did he have a problem with alcohol?

Kelly: Yes!

Me: Ok, she is telling me that he didn’t treat her well. He was not good to her. She wants you to know that she has forgiven him, that there is only love. That the three of them are together and that it is really good.

Me: Now she is telling me how much she loves you and she wants you to know that you feel alone and are hurting but that she is with you. She is telling me that when she was alive she couldn’t be there for you either. I am getting something but it is hard to describe… it was like she was there but she wasn’t there. She was there physically but she couldn’t be there for you emotionally. She wants you to know that she wanted to be there but she couldn’t and she is sorry.

<<Kelly is emotional and confirms this.>>

Me: I am asking her name but I just am not getting it. What is her name?

Kelly: _____ (I can’t remember what it was.)

Me: No, I am just not getting her name.

Me: She is showing me a locket. Do you have a locket?

Kelly: Yes.

Me: Did she give you the locket?

Kelly: She gave me a cross that I wear with the locket.

Me: No, this is about the locket. Is your son in there? Do you have a picture of your son in there?

Kelly: I have some of his ashes in there.

Me: Yes. She was showing this to you to prove to you it is her. Again, she wants you to know that you are not alone. She is with you. He is fine. He is with you. He is happy.

Me: I am feeling another energy. A sean or john sound. A place where you worked for a long time. Have you been at your job a long time?

Kelly: Two years.

Me: No, that is not it.

Me: I am feeling another energy now. <<I felt so much and so many different things at once that I didn’t know how to start. It was all about this boy’s death>>

Me: Did your son’s death have impact?

Kelly: Maybe.

Me: Was it an accident, car accident?

Kelly: No.

Me: I keep getting accident and my chest feels tight (my throat also hurt).

Me: I am seeing a vast land, outside, brown hills in the back groud. He was a distance from you. Does this make sense?

Kelly: Yes

Me: I keep hearing “Ma”, “Ma”, “Ma.” Did he call you Ma?

Kelly: Yes <very emotional>

Me: I am seeing a necklace, maybe made out of material, with a little cross. Did he have a necklace like this?

Kelly: Yes

Me: I am getting the image of a truck again. Did he drive a truck?

Kelly: Yes

Me: I am seeing him without a shirt on. I keep seeing him without a shirt on. Was he found dead without his shirt on?

Kelly: Yes

Me: I am hearing Paul. Was his name Paul?

Kelly: No

Me: I am seeing two guys. He was with two friends. <<I think his friend’s name was Paul but it felt unimportant so I moved on.>>

Kelly: Maybe, we don’t know.

Me: He wants you to know that his death was an accident.

Kelly: ok

Me: Is your son in his late teens or maybe early twenties. << I was basing this on the feeling of his maturity>>

Kelly: He is in his twenties.

Me: He is showing me a room in your house. Do you have a room – maybe it is in between two other rooms? It is dark like maybe it has wood walls. Do you have a dark bedroom like this?

Kelly: Yes

Me: He is showing me a sibling on the bed. The sibling is sad. Do you have another son?

Kelly: No

Me: You have a daughter. Do she have brown hair? <<I am seeing all kinds of images about the room, kid on bed, trophy on wall, feeling sad, not seen by parent, needing love – it felt symbolic..and then lots more that I describe>>

Kelly: Yes.

Me: Ok, this is about her. She is feeling a deep sadness around his death and how it has affected her relationship with you. She is missing you. She is feeling guilt about being happy when you are so sad. She has something going on or that she is active in that is important to her. She needs to hear that it is ok to have this other thing. She needs you to show some interest in it. He wants you to show her your joy. He wants you to know that it is ok to be joyful and sad at the same time. He showing love towards his sister. Does this make sense?

Kelly: Yes, very much so.

Me: Now he is talking about you two. There was some tension towards the end of his life. He wants you to know that he understands and that he is sorry and that he loves you. Does this make sense?

Kelly: Yes.

Me: I am being shown an image of his father. Did your quarrellings or disagreement have anything to do with his father?

Kelly: Yes.

Me: I keep getting the feeling that he was off being a young man. He needed to do this. Was he out of state or out of your area when he died?

Kelly: Yes.

Me:I keep getting the number X. Does this have any significance to you?

Kelly: Not that I can think of.

Me: Actually I keep getting my birthdate… Is there a birthday or anniversary coming up?

Kelly: Not that I can think of. I will probably remember after we get off the phone.

Me: When did he pass?

Kelly: <<She tells me the date which is this month>>

Me: He wants you to know that he will be with you on the anniversary of his passing.

Kelly: He better be<a little laughter>

Me: He wants you to know that it is ok to be sad. He wants you to know that it is also ok to be happy. He is with you all the time. He is happy and peaceful. He passed on quickly, it was an accident. He is with his favorite uncle. I see a tall man with him. Did have have a favorite uncle that passed on?

Kelly: Yes

Me: Is the uncle’s name Gus, Agustine, Agus ?

Kelly: No. <<she mentions son’s name which is Arus (sp?). I am so happy that he finally gave me his name!>>

Me: He wants you to know that his uncle was there with him when he died and helped him to cross over. He is sending you so much love. He keeps saying the same things about forgiving and loving and that he is happy. He also is mentioning his sister again.

<<I give her the opportunity to say something to him. He lets her know that he can hear her always.>>

As the energies were pulling back I felt compelled to tell her that there was a dog with him. She asked if I knew what it looked like and I said, “maybe brown?” The energies continued to pull back but then the image of a white dog with some darkness on it’s ears came through very strongly. I told her it was important that I let her know the accurate description of the dog. She said “yes, that was important.”

She told me it was “Woofers” the dog that she got when her son was six months old – they grew up together.

She then explained the information I received. Here is a very simplified version of what she said:

Her mother was a chain smoker and did die of lung related illness. She said that she always wore her fuzzie slippers. The reason I kept getting “here, not here” was because she was schizophrenic. She shared about how her father was an alcoholic and not good to her mom. She said she was not surprised that her father stayed back. The child that was with her she believes was the pregnancy that her mom chose to terminate. Her mom never forgave herself for this and they had a long going conversation about it. She wanted Kelly to know that they were finally together and that his name is Marc and that they are happy. All of this information was very healing for Kelly.

She told me that her son was in a town in Alaska that fit my description exactly. Her son’s death was a mystery. At one time they thought maybe it was a homicide which is why he kept saying it was an accident. She has been really grieving the loss of her son and part of that was the guilt she felt about how their relationship was in the end. He let her know that he is with her, that his death was an accident, and that he is happy and peaceful and with his uncle and dog. This was all very important information for Kelly’s healing process.

She told me that her daughter is in the process of planning her wedding and this is what her son was referring to. He wants his mom to show her daughter some joy and interest around this important event in her daughter’s life.

Both Kelly and I have a tendency to feel the joy of knowing that there is life after life and then go right back to questioning. She and I are kindred spirits in this way. There is absolutely no way I could have known any of this information. I hope that it can provide her with some comfort and I hope that it can help me stay in my place of knowingness and gratitude.

Thank you God.

Yesterday I had three wonderful sessions.

My first session turned into an intuitive reading and guidance from his guides/angels. He came specifically to talk about his work – to set intention. He received so much more.

My second session was about healing. It was such a powerful session. Last week I got exhausted from doing healings. I wasn’t worried, as this is my pattern when I open to new levels of my abilities. And then, after I get in my groove I am actually energized by the work. Besides it being just an amazing experience, when my sitter left I was so energized!

My third session was a woman who wanted to make contact with a deceased loved one. It was a beautiful, healing, confirming experience. I am so humbled by this gift I have been given. I am in awe knowing that we can in fact talk to those who have passed on.

SPIRITS DO LIVE ON!!!! THEY SPEAK OF ONLY LOVE THERE!! THEY ARE AVAILABLE. THEY HEAR YOU. THEY CAN MAKE CONTACT. THERE IS LIFE AFTER LIFE!! WOW!!!

My experiences are getting more and more powerful and I am really starting to believe, to walk in truth.

I was so excited by this that I couldn’t fall asleep last night until 1:30 am, and then I was up at 6:00 am. I want to shout from the roof tops.

My pattern is to believe for up to 36 hours and then to start doubting myself until my next appointment. I am booked for almost the next three weeks (I only see clients about four days a week) so I should have plenty of reminders.

I feel different. I perceive events and circumstances differently. I don’t feel so serious. I feel more compassionate. I feel so much lighter and freer. I feel like I can see through people and into their hearts. I feel released from alot of the weight I have been carrying for 36 years. Wow. Is this really happening?

Thank you Spirit for changing my life. Thank you for choosing me and trusting me with the sacredness of this journey. I am truly humbled and awed.

I am sitting here feeling trepidation about exposing my naked and raw thoughts into the land of blog.

I started this blog for a legion of reasons. One reason being that I still deeply long to find someone else’s experience I can relate to – provide a little normalcy on this paranormal journey. I get glimpses of other’s experience when I read their books but it is never enough. So, one of my reasons was to provide the content that I have longed for myself.

Now that I actually have people reading this thing, and now that I am doing so many readings, I find myself editing my thoughts, which is in fact not what I would want from someone else…and especially not from myself.

So… my unedited version…

The truth is today I am feeling very emotional, teary even. I am not sure exactly why (um, I am having spirits speak to me and through me. something that I used to think only happened in people’s imaginations – what is there to be emotional about!?!?)

If someone told me my story as their own I can almost guarantee you that my inner skeptic’s internal dialog would go a little something like this – “you have to be kidding. you heal people? talk to their deceased loved ones? and you are intuitive too? and there are people who actually come to you for this and then they give you money?!?” <insert mental eye roll>

And then, well, and then there are the times when I remember.

I remember.

And my heart opens. And if I were talking to myself, sharing with myself my own story and experiences it would seem so clear, so understandable, all of the inner searching and needing of validation…

The need to just be heard – understandable. The weight in my chest – absolutely reasonable. The joy and exuberance – you betcha. The insatiable desire for understanding – uh huh. The feeling of isolation – yes. The craving to find someone who knows the answers – not gonna happen but I can understand why I would want this.

Yes, if I were talking to me I would say things like, “What you are going through is such a gift. I can only imagine how it could feel difficult at times. However you feel is perfect. You are obviously where you need to be. Be gentle with yourself. There is nothing for you to do but say “Yes.” You are doing great. You are serving. You are coming from a place of integrity and love. Allow. Allow yourself to feel the goodness of what you are doing. Allow yourself to feel – whatever that looks like. It is ok. You are doing great. I BELIEVE in you.”

I believe.

I am a skeptic…

And…

I BELIEVE!