Dive Into Spirit

I have given some very interesting readings this week.

One thing that I wanted to note happened in yesterday’s reading. My sitter’s mom showed up and was sharing information. She had acknowledged their life together and that some of her choices had really hurt her daughter. She was apologizing and letting her daughter know what type of affect these decisions had on her and how she could heal herself from them now. At one point the mom mentioned that she planned “to get it right next time” and I had the sense that they would have another life time together where they were mom and daughter once again.

It was the first time that I can remember receiving a message about a future life time….

It poses some very interesting questions for me:
How would she know that they would have another life time together?
Who decides what the dynamic will be?
Is the dynamic based on the lessons learned and not learned? Did my sitter’s higher self already agree to another life time as this woman’s daughter?
Did I misinterpret what she was saying?

I have started writing questions down that I would like answered from those on the other side. It is an interesting list that I will share at some point. If you have any questions that you can think of email them to me: diveintospirit at gmail dot com

Blessings

This is a verbatim transcript between a father and a daughter. This woman came to me for an intuitive reading. Before she even showed up this energy arrived. After she received her intuitive message her father came back again.

Some readings are much more precise, some are a little more vague. I feel that this is a pretty good example of contact from a loved one…

ME:… do you know a Jeremy or John? Maybe late…

Ariel: Yes, that is who I asked for… late what?

Me: Late forties or fifties…

<<I was seeing this man now. Physically he looked this age. He looked young and vibrant. This was a good time in his life. He was not wearing a shirt - he was sticking out his hairy chest and standing in front of ships/boats.>>

Me:It feels… um…how old was he when… is that who asked for to come in?

Ariel: Yes

Me: What is his name?

Ariel: John

Me: Ok, my whole body just tingled. How old was he when he passed on?

Ariel: He was, I think he was in his sixties, sixty-five?

Me: Did you meet him when he was in his forties?

<<something feels important about the time he is showing me - he feels healthy and vital. maybe the best time of his life?>>

Ariel: He is my father.

Me: Ok, so just let me tell you what I am seeing. Did he have anything to do with boats?

<<He is showing me himself in front of the harbor of ships/boats again - shirt off, chest sticking out.>>

Ariel: <<laughs>> He was in the Navy!

Me: He is showing me a picture of boats with him. And did he have kind of a hairy chest?

Ariel: Yes

Me: OK, for some reason he is showing me his hairy chest

<<I laugh. He feels like a funny guy.>>

Ariel: <<laughter>> “oh daddy”

Me: OK, so I heard “baby girl.”

<<energy didn’t deplete - felt like I got the words wrong. feeling stayed the same>>

Me: Ok, just let me see. Hold on.

<<now he is showing me blue eyes>>

Me: Did he have blue eyes?

Ariel: Yes

Me: He is showing me blue eyes and ooohhh there is so much love there. He is just sending so much love.

Me: Ok, so were you kinda daddy’s girl?

<<I am feeling this “that’s my girl” feeling still. A feeling of deep connectedness with Ariel>>

Ariel: I wanted to be but there was a lot of conflict. He and I both were very strong and we fought a lot.

Me: He is just saying…<<I was getting that same feeling>>… no, he is saying you were always daddy’s girl…I keep getting this baby girl feeling…were you the youngest?

Ariel: No, I was the oldest.

Me:Maybe it was the first born..no…it’s…no… hold on…let me ask him to say it. ok, he is giving me the words, let me see… <<the energy was so strong. he was trying to convey something with feeling and I wasn’t getting it right>>

Me: So it is “darling girl” <<energy let up a bit but not completely>. <<I then heard..>> “you will always be my darling girl”

Me: Did he smoke pipes?

Ariel: Not that I…

Me: I am getting a flavor in my mouth <<also experienced a good feeling and felt pipe smoking>>. Yah, I am getting tabacco-y but it is not cigarettes, like a cigar or pipe flavor.

Ariel: No, he smoked cigarettes more than he did a pipe or

Me: It feels more earthy than cigarettes

Ariel: Yah, I don’t know what that would be

Me: There is definitely smoke. It may be cigarettes <didn’t feel that it was>. Did he really love them? It doesn’t feel like um…<<energy shifts strongly - he is showing me his chest again and then I feel the pressure in my heart area>

Me: Did he die from heart?

Ariel: Yes

Me: Yah, ok, now he is showing me his heart..he is putting pressure on my heart, he is wanting me to know how he passed on. Hold on ok….<<I am seeing three energies - siblings>>

Me: Do you have three other siblings.

Ariel: No

Me: Hmm.. I am seeing three. Like there are three of you.

Ariel: Oh, there are three of us. My sister and then I have a half brother.

Me: Ok. I am getting three.

<energy spiked on half brother. felt distance around him>

Me: For some reason he has some concern, or he wanting, around the half brother. There is some kind of
<<felt distance again>>…Do you talk to your half brother?

Ariel: No. His mother was. It was a very different family.

Me: Ok <father continues to express and show concern about half brother>> There is something about your half brother, and maybe his wife. <<didn’t say it out loud b/c energy was moving fast but felt that there was or will be loss?>>Your father is showing concern around it. He is sending love there.

Ariel: ok, I haven’t talked to my brother in years actually.

Me: I wouldn’t be surprised if somehow you guys are connected again soon. You may find out about him or something. There is something going on with him.

Ariel: I can ask my mother. She is in touch with him.

Me: Ok, good. Let me see what else comes up. <<I started to see the top of a balding head>>

Me: Did he go balding or something, a little bit?

Ariel: My father, did he go balding?

Me: yah…

Ariel: yes.

Me: Ok, for some reason he is showing me part of a bald head

Ariel: Yah, his hair started to thin. I think he was upset about it.

<<I laugh out loud>> <<The feeling I get makes me laugh. This feels funny to him some how. He shows me his chest again.>>

Me: He shows me his chest again, he is sticking it out.

Ariel: Oh that is funny.

Me: He is laughing again. Was he kind of funny?

Ariel: Yah

Me: He has this sarcastic feel, a deep sarcastic laugh, like he can laugh at himself. He is laughing at that. He
laughed at that.

Ariel: So what does he think of me and all my boyfriends? All these men I have in my life? What does he think of that?

Me: I don’t know what this means, maybe it means something to you, I heard, “oh kitty kat.” He is kind of laughing again. There is no judgment.

Ariel: Oh good

Me: He understands that you would expect him to have judgment but there isn’t now. It’s not like that where he is. There is just understanding.

<<energy is now coming strong and fast - I am working hard to slow it down enough to get it and communicate it - now it feels like the message is going to come>>

Me: Ohhhh. Ok, so there is something that he is really sorry about. There was a misunderstanding between you two. I am feeling like there is a disconnect, like an inability to communicate. Ohhhh, you were really hurt. Ok, so there is this feeling of you being really judged by him and him being short tempered and really inaccessible. Ok, not short tempered but..hold on… what is it… curt, not allowing, like you were trying to be more communicative and he wouldn’t allow you to share your feelings. And there is this frustration… Is that resonating at all?

Ariel: Yes, it is.

Me: He is so sorry. This really hurt you. This was really hard for you. And I am feeling like in the end maybe you reached out and he wouldn’t allow it in. Is that correct?

Ariel: I felt there was a healing in the end

Me: <<energy dissipates>> Ok, that was it, the energy dissipates. So that was it. Maybe it wasn’t so much about the end and that there was a healing in the end. He is saying sorry.

Ariel: It was painful.

Me: He gets that now.

Ariel: Why was he like that?

Me: let me ask, hold on, ok…

Me: So I am feeling that it was just his way, that it was part of his journey and his path and he is seeing now how much more he could have loved you fully and he is so sorry for that. <<energy intense again>> He is asking me to make clear though that he is really happy and peaceful now. There is no feeling of guilt or regret, only, its not like he is feeling, um…. He is wanting to heal that with you now so you can more fully love each other now.

Me:He wants you to know how happy he is. It is important for me to say to you right now that he hasn’t been hurting but that he can see…because he hears you…you connect to him and he wants you to be able to express fully to him and to be your joy fully to him because he gets it now.

Ariel: Thank you.

<<energy dissipates feels so peaceful>>

Me: Oh he is happy…ok.

Me: I think he smoked pipe. Since this is coming up again maybe ask your mom about it.

Ariel: Oh he did. At one time in his life he did.

Me: He really liked it and he gave it up but he didn’t want to.

Ariel: That’s right. That’s totally right on.

Me: K. So he is bringing it up again.

Ariel: Isn’t that funny that he would allude to that. It is not something that I connect with him but it is true.

Me: Maybe it is something to say to your mom or something. It felt important to him. It was important to him. And I am seeing you around water for some reason, like a river. Do you go to a river often or something?

Ariel: No, I think of it. I like rivers.

Me: Well, there is something between you two and rivers. I get the sense that he is with you during that time. Maybe you are going to one soon. I keep seeing a river and it is now. It’s not like you are young or something. Your energy is now. Yah… I keep seeing it. Just keep it in mind. It might have some significance for you and you are going to get it. And maybe he is going to make his presence known to you. And he can hear you and you can feel him now.

Ariel: ok

Me: He is pulling back. Is there anything else?

Ariel: No. That was nice. That was nice to have that encounter with him. And I have always felt like a bit of an unfinished chapter in my life…

Kelly found me through the internet. Prior to our session, I knew nothing about her other than she lost a son…

Kelly called me a couple of minutes after 7 my time. I was feeling a little nervous b/c I knew she had lost a son and was deep in the grieving process. It can especially feel like a huge responsibility when reading for someone who is so raw. I was concerned that if her son did not show up it would add to her grief. I said a prayer asking her son to PLEASE make contact for her sake - I requested this last night too. Last night when I requested this I felt and saw (in my mind’s eye) a woman.

This woman came to me at the appointed time of my and Kelly’s phone reading, and when I thought that maybe Kelly was a no show, this woman told me Kelly would call. She told me Kelly was feeling nervous but that she would call. A few minutes later my phone rang.

Kelly and I talked for a couple of minutes. She told me that she was nervous. The woman showed up immediately.

Here is a rough transcript of what was said:

Me: I have a woman here. I see her wearing a hot pink terry cloth bathrobe and fuzzy slippers. She is standing in a kitchen with linoleum floors. She is smoking, a lot. She also has a cup of coffee, I think. Do you know who this is?

Kelly: Yes, my mom.

Me: My chest is tight. I get the feeling she died with something to do with her lungs or she smoked a lot - a lot. Is this correct?

Kelly: Yes.

Me: She is with a little boy. It is NOT your son. I get the feeling that he was her son or grandson, definitely not your son. He is young. Did she have a young child die? Does this make sense to you?

Kelly: Yes

Me: His name is Marc. She wants you to know this and that she is happy. She is taking care of him now and they are both very happy.

Me: She also has a man behind her. He is not coming forward. It is your father. Has your father passed and was he a big man?

Kelly: Yes

Me: Did he have a problem with alcohol?

Kelly: Yes!

Me: Ok, she is telling me that he didn’t treat her well. He was not good to her. She wants you to know that she has forgiven him, that there is only love. That the three of them are together and that it is really good.

Me: Now she is telling me how much she loves you and she wants you to know that you feel alone and are hurting but that she is with you. She is telling me that when she was alive she couldn’t be there for you either. I am getting something but it is hard to describe… it was like she was there but she wasn’t there. She was there physically but she couldn’t be there for you emotionally. She wants you to know that she wanted to be there but she couldn’t and she is sorry.

<<Kelly is emotional and confirms this.>>

Me: I am asking her name but I just am not getting it. What is her name?

Kelly: _____ (I can’t remember what it was.)

Me: No, I am just not getting her name.

Me: She is showing me a locket. Do you have a locket?

Kelly: Yes.

Me: Did she give you the locket?

Kelly: She gave me a cross that I wear with the locket.

Me: No, this is about the locket. Is your son in there? Do you have a picture of your son in there?

Kelly: I have some of his ashes in there.

Me: Yes. She was showing this to you to prove to you it is her. Again, she wants you to know that you are not alone. She is with you. He is fine. He is with you. He is happy.

Me: I am feeling another energy. A sean or john sound. A place where you worked for a long time. Have you been at your job a long time?

Kelly: Two years.

Me: No, that is not it.

Me: I am feeling another energy now. <<I felt so much and so many different things at once that I didn’t know how to start. It was all about this boy’s death>>

Me: Did your son’s death have impact?

Kelly: Maybe.

Me: Was it an accident, car accident?

Kelly: No.

Me: I keep getting accident and my chest feels tight (my throat also hurt).

Me: I am seeing a vast land, outside, brown hills in the back groud. He was a distance from you. Does this make sense?

Kelly: Yes

Me: I keep hearing “Ma”, “Ma”, “Ma.” Did he call you Ma?

Kelly: Yes <very emotional>

Me: I am seeing a necklace, maybe made out of material, with a little cross. Did he have a necklace like this?

Kelly: Yes

Me: I am getting the image of a truck again. Did he drive a truck?

Kelly: Yes

Me: I am seeing him without a shirt on. I keep seeing him without a shirt on. Was he found dead without his shirt on?

Kelly: Yes

Me: I am hearing Paul. Was his name Paul?

Kelly: No

Me: I am seeing two guys. He was with two friends. <<I think his friend’s name was Paul but it felt unimportant so I moved on.>>

Kelly: Maybe, we don’t know.

Me: He wants you to know that his death was an accident.

Kelly: ok

Me: Is your son in his late teens or maybe early twenties. << I was basing this on the feeling of his maturity>>

Kelly: He is in his twenties.

Me: He is showing me a room in your house. Do you have a room - maybe it is in between two other rooms? It is dark like maybe it has wood walls. Do you have a dark bedroom like this?

Kelly: Yes

Me: He is showing me a sibling on the bed. The sibling is sad. Do you have another son?

Kelly: No

Me: You have a daughter. Do she have brown hair? <<I am seeing all kinds of images about the room, kid on bed, trophy on wall, feeling sad, not seen by parent, needing love - it felt symbolic..and then lots more that I describe>>

Kelly: Yes.

Me: Ok, this is about her. She is feeling a deep sadness around his death and how it has affected her relationship with you. She is missing you. She is feeling guilt about being happy when you are so sad. She has something going on or that she is active in that is important to her. She needs to hear that it is ok to have this other thing. She needs you to show some interest in it. He wants you to show her your joy. He wants you to know that it is ok to be joyful and sad at the same time. He showing love towards his sister. Does this make sense?

Kelly: Yes, very much so.

Me: Now he is talking about you two. There was some tension towards the end of his life. He wants you to know that he understands and that he is sorry and that he loves you. Does this make sense?

Kelly: Yes.

Me: I am being shown an image of his father. Did your quarrellings or disagreement have anything to do with his father?

Kelly: Yes.

Me: I keep getting the feeling that he was off being a young man. He needed to do this. Was he out of state or out of your area when he died?

Kelly: Yes.

Me:I keep getting the number X. Does this have any significance to you?

Kelly: Not that I can think of.

Me: Actually I keep getting my birthdate… Is there a birthday or anniversary coming up?

Kelly: Not that I can think of. I will probably remember after we get off the phone.

Me: When did he pass?

Kelly: <<She tells me the date which is this month>>

Me: He wants you to know that he will be with you on the anniversary of his passing.

Kelly: He better be<a little laughter>

Me: He wants you to know that it is ok to be sad. He wants you to know that it is also ok to be happy. He is with you all the time. He is happy and peaceful. He passed on quickly, it was an accident. He is with his favorite uncle. I see a tall man with him. Did have have a favorite uncle that passed on?

Kelly: Yes

Me: Is the uncle’s name Gus, Agustine, Agus ?

Kelly: No. <<she mentions son’s name which is Arus (sp?). I am so happy that he finally gave me his name!>>

Me: He wants you to know that his uncle was there with him when he died and helped him to cross over. He is sending you so much love. He keeps saying the same things about forgiving and loving and that he is happy. He also is mentioning his sister again.

<<I give her the opportunity to say something to him. He lets her know that he can hear her always.>>

As the energies were pulling back I felt compelled to tell her that there was a dog with him. She asked if I knew what it looked like and I said, “maybe brown?” The energies continued to pull back but then the image of a white dog with some darkness on it’s ears came through very strongly. I told her it was important that I let her know the accurate description of the dog. She said “yes, that was important.”

She told me it was “Woofers” the dog that she got when her son was six months old - they grew up together.

She then explained the information I received. Here is a very simplified version of what she said:

Her mother was a chain smoker and did die of lung related illness. She said that she always wore her fuzzie slippers. The reason I kept getting “here, not here” was because she was schizophrenic. She shared about how her father was an alcoholic and not good to her mom. She said she was not surprised that her father stayed back. The child that was with her she believes was the pregnancy that her mom chose to terminate. Her mom never forgave herself for this and they had a long going conversation about it. She wanted Kelly to know that they were finally together and that his name is Marc and that they are happy. All of this information was very healing for Kelly.

She told me that her son was in a town in Alaska that fit my description exactly. Her son’s death was a mystery. At one time they thought maybe it was a homicide which is why he kept saying it was an accident. She has been really grieving the loss of her son and part of that was the guilt she felt about how their relationship was in the end. He let her know that he is with her, that his death was an accident, and that he is happy and peaceful and with his uncle and dog. This was all very important information for Kelly’s healing process.

She told me that her daughter is in the process of planning her wedding and this is what her son was referring to. He wants his mom to show her daughter some joy and interest around this important event in her daughter’s life.

Both Kelly and I have a tendency to feel the joy of knowing that there is life after life and then go right back to questioning. She and I are kindred spirits in this way. There is absolutely no way I could have known any of this information. I hope that it can provide her with some comfort and I hope that it can help me stay in my place of knowingness and gratitude.

Thank you God.

Yesterday I had three wonderful sessions.

My first session turned into an intuitive reading and guidance from his guides/angels. He came specifically to talk about his work - to set intention. He received so much more.

My second session was about healing. It was such a powerful session. Last week I got exhausted from doing healings. I wasn’t worried, as this is my pattern when I open to new levels of my abilities. And then, after I get in my groove I am actually energized by the work. Besides it being just an amazing experience, when my sitter left I was so energized!

My third session was a woman who wanted to make contact with a deceased loved one. It was a beautiful, healing, confirming experience. I am so humbled by this gift I have been given. I am in awe knowing that we can in fact talk to those who have passed on.

SPIRITS DO LIVE ON!!!! THEY SPEAK OF ONLY LOVE THERE!! THEY ARE AVAILABLE. THEY HEAR YOU. THEY CAN MAKE CONTACT. THERE IS LIFE AFTER LIFE!! WOW!!!

My experiences are getting more and more powerful and I am really starting to believe, to walk in truth.

I was so excited by this that I couldn’t fall asleep last night until 1:30 am, and then I was up at 6:00 am. I want to shout from the roof tops.

My pattern is to believe for up to 36 hours and then to start doubting myself until my next appointment. I am booked for almost the next three weeks (I only see clients about four days a week) so I should have plenty of reminders.

I feel different. I perceive events and circumstances differently. I don’t feel so serious. I feel more compassionate. I feel so much lighter and freer. I feel like I can see through people and into their hearts. I feel released from alot of the weight I have been carrying for 36 years. Wow. Is this really happening?

Thank you Spirit for changing my life. Thank you for choosing me and trusting me with the sacredness of this journey. I am truly humbled and awed.

I am sitting here feeling trepidation about exposing my naked and raw thoughts into the land of blog.

I started this blog for a legion of reasons. One reason being that I still deeply long to find someone else’s experience I can relate to - provide a little normalcy on this paranormal journey. I get glimpses of other’s experience when I read their books but it is never enough. So, one of my reasons was to provide the content that I have longed for myself.

Now that I actually have people reading this thing, and now that I am doing so many readings, I find myself editing my thoughts, which is in fact not what I would want from someone else…and especially not from myself.

So… my unedited version…

The truth is today I am feeling very emotional, teary even. I am not sure exactly why (um, I am having spirits speak to me and through me. something that I used to think only happened in people’s imaginations - what is there to be emotional about!?!?)

If someone told me my story as their own I can almost guarantee you that my inner skeptic’s internal dialog would go a little something like this - “you have to be kidding. you heal people? talk to their deceased loved ones? and you are intuitive too? and there are people who actually come to you for this and then they give you money?!?” <insert mental eye roll>

And then, well, and then there are the times when I remember.

I remember.

And my heart opens. And if I were talking to myself, sharing with myself my own story and experiences it would seem so clear, so understandable, all of the inner searching and needing of validation…

The need to just be heard - understandable. The weight in my chest - absolutely reasonable. The joy and exuberance - you betcha. The insatiable desire for understanding - uh huh. The feeling of isolation - yes. The craving to find someone who knows the answers - not gonna happen but I can understand why I would want this.

Yes, if I were talking to me I would say things like, “What you are going through is such a gift. I can only imagine how it could feel difficult at times. However you feel is perfect. You are obviously where you need to be. Be gentle with yourself. There is nothing for you to do but say “Yes.” You are doing great. You are serving. You are coming from a place of integrity and love. Allow. Allow yourself to feel the goodness of what you are doing. Allow yourself to feel - whatever that looks like. It is ok. You are doing great. I BELIEVE in you.”

I believe.

I am a skeptic…

And…

I BELIEVE!

A few weeks ago, when M gave me the green light to read about other medium’s experiences, I read a few books by John Edward, Gordon Smith, Suzanne Northrop, etc…

As odd as this may seem, I was so green at the time that I was learning the difference between a psychic, a medium, etc. I also learned new words like clairvoyant (inner sight), claraudient (inner hearing), and clairsentient (inner feeling and touch). I experience all three.

Even after reading a handful of books, I am still not sure exactly what box I fit into…At one point I thought “trance medium” that sounds right. I think that this is what both John Edward and Gordon Smith call themselves, and I relate the most to their books and experiences so I thought “why not?”.

A few days later I read that a “trance medium” is when spirits actually speak through you, not to you. This is when they actually use your vocal cords. My immediate response to reading this definition was a big “no thank you.” I have no desire to channel in that way. During my first spiritual coming out experience I had a big blue energy trying to speak through me. I did not feel comfortable with this and I did not allow it to happen. I do kind of remember it happening a couple of years ago when I was working with my sister (she is a very connected woman) and when I first started doing healings. Anyway, to say that I had resistance to being a “trance medium” is an understatment.

This evening I did a couple of readings. During one of the readings I was sharing with my sitter some info from one of her Angels. I was describing what I was seeing and feeling, trying to put the two together to give the right message. I knew I was grappling a little, trying to get it just right. When all of a sudden I just kinda let go for a few seconds and then came back to hearing myself speak. I was listening to something being said through me but I wasn’t speaking. I think that only a couple of sentences were spoken but I am not sure exactly. I remember asking the sitter if that made sense to her. She said, “yes, now I get it.” I am not sure if she understood that someone had spoken through me or not. We just kept talking and then it was the end of our session.

I actually felt a bit elated by the experience. I wasn’t scared at all and it sure did make it clear that this is not just my imagination, which is something that I crave. (Yes, I know I should believe completely by now - my skepticism is part of my process somehow.)

When I came upstairs my three year old said “mommy we could hear you.” My dh asked how it went and I briefly said, “it was wild. I think someone spoke through me.” Dh responded, “I wasn’t going to say anything but we could hear you, we couldn’t make out what you were saying, but we could hear you speaking and it wasn’t your voice.” (!!!)

I think I would like to start taping my sessions. Does anyone know a good way to tape phone sessions??

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I have been asking to see spirits, and not with my mind’s eye like I do now when connecting for others. I have been asking to really SEE spirits, like sitting right next to me.

Well, first let me say, much to my frustration, that it just has not happened - I have not see the physical form of someone who has died standing next to someone I am reading for, nor has M showed up in a physical form when I have requested (over and over).

At first I was told that it was not an ability I possessed (when this first all begun). After some time I started asking again to see in this way - I was then told I am not ready. A year or so later, after more pleading, I was told that when I really started to serve in this way that I would start to open to this ability.

This last week I have been seeing flashes of light. This happens both during the day and at night. The cool thing is, it doesn’t scare me at all and on a couple of occasions I have asked for it to happen on command (if this is a spirit making it presence known, than do it again, now!) and it has!

Do anyone else have this experience? Either my eye sight is going, or I am having contact in a visual way! I think I will check in with M to see what he has to say about it later today.

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There is a definite pattern when working with most people…

We either sit down together or connect on the phone, depending on their geographical location. I then take a little time to talk to them, somehow this helps me link to their energy, loved ones, guides, etc..

When people seek out a psychic medium it usually means that they are searching for something: answers, connection, healing…it is rare that someone seeks me out who doesn’t need some type of healing emotionally or physically.

Often times, along with the myriad emotions that they are feeling comes trepidation, anxiety, nervousness, skepticism, and/or sometimes excitement. These emotions are normal - in fact I had them too when I had my first psychic reading about a month ago. However, what I am learning is that they create this sort of energetic barrier that takes time to work through.

Some people’s barrier is stronger than others, and the strength of this energetic wall (for lack of a better term) seems to directly correlate to how clear of a connection I can make, and the level of information I pick up on.

Sometimes when a spirit has passed on that really wants to make its presence known it doesn’t seem to matter whether or not the sitter believes in the process or not - the information just comes through loud and clear. However, whether or not the sitter will take the information in is another matter all together.

I recently had a reading where two spirits came in so strongly. I received tons of images, feelings, even a couple of names. The person I was reading for was not shifting or resonating at all when I shared this info so I suggested we come back to it and move on to what other types of info I received. As it ended up, what he really wanted was an intuitive reading.

After we were done receiving info from his guide/angel/higher self (not sure exactly where the info was coming from) the one particular female spirit came through again but he couldn’t identify who it was. He then admitted to me that he just wasn’t interested in this part of the reading (wish I would have known ahead of time!).

If someone is closed down there is obviously nothing I can do. I have no idea if he knew who I was referring to or not. I did feel sorry for the spirit, she had been making her presence known for days.

What I have also found is that after a few minutes, sometimes less, sometimes more, an energetic shift will take place in my sitter. I think it when the start to feel that I am legitimate. I find them open to the process, willing to receive information, and even eager to help figure out the symbolism that I receive sometimes. I always look forward to this shift - this is when the reading starts to flow.

With the skeptics (and I get it, I am one of them too!) I have found that getting feedback is like pulling teeth. A few nights ago (another intuitive reading) I was picking up some info about a woman. I was seeing her working with animals. I explained this. I saw her working with animals and happy and I saw an energetic alignment with Source. Then I felt that the last three years had been really difficult in regard to her work - I felt struggle. I shared all this and there was no response. I didn’t know if I was totally off the mark, going somewhat in the right direction, or what. I kept repeating what I was seeing and feeling, trying to take it deeper, hoping that at some point something would resonate for her.

I kept getting the same message but she wouldn’t respond. Finally I asked for feedback.

Me: Is nothing resonating for you?
Her: Well, I don’t want to feed you any info.
Me: Hmm.. well, I can understand that but I am not sure if I am going in the right direction or not.
Her: silence
Me: This reading is absolutely for you and if you want me to just tell you what I am feeling and seeing than I can do that. However, I think you should know that what happens is I will get information, often times when I am interpreting it correctly the energy feels intense and I explain to you what I am experiencing. It will stay intense until I am able to express it to you in a way that you get it. After you get the message then the intensity subsides and I get another message.

At this point, I repeat everything I had just said and ask again if it is resonating.

Her: Well, yes actually, I have been very unhappy with the work that I am doing and I have always wanted to work with animals.

At this point I feel something in her shift - the barrier has come down. I started receiving and she continued to validate and help me figure out what was being conveyed.

I am still in process around my intuitive work… this is another post

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I have been questioning my need to get my experiences out of me and onto this blog…

This morning I went through and read some of my posts and it is clear to me that having these experiences written down is a great reference for me.

Rereading the posts puts me right back in touch with the emotions and feelings behind the experiences - even if I don’t take the time to choose words that dance on the screen or weave a tale that transports you to another place.

If I take the time to write about my experiences it helps to lodge them into my cerebral cortex. If I don’t relive them, expressing them with tangible words and feelings, then I will truly forget about them. My lack of remembering, I believe, serves a purpose. I am just not sure what it is yet.

I have been living these experiences for three years. I am just now willing to FULLY embrace, explore and live and breathe them.

I appreciate your support, your words of understanding and encouragement. The more I receive from all of you, the more inspired I am to just let go and dive into Spirit.

Please keep the support coming. Email me at: DiveIntoSpirit [at] gmail [dot] com

I have been doing phone readings every day this week.

Before I begin the readings I have been taking about a half an hour to unwind, clear my mind, and connect to Spirit. To be completely honest I don’t think this is necessary, however, considering I have two small children it is a wonderful way to get in my personal spiritual connection - and I do feel like the more in the zone I am the easier the info is to access.

A few different things have been happening… I will write about one now.

I have been talking to my main guy (I don’t think Angels are really male or female but they do certainly have that feel, and sometimes they feel both masculine and feminine at the same time).

I decided to write while we spoke so that I would remember. When I go back to look at these notes it often feels like I am reading them for the first time. For the last couple of years, M (my angel and teacher) has been downloading my answers to me. He will use language, and I actually do hear him (up, back and left), when I request this of him.

If I remember correctly, this conversation was a bit of both (word-for-word and brain dump). A tool that I often use, both when receiving for myself, and for others is to ask for guidance in how to explain something or how to put into words that will be easily received (a teacher/mentor/friend suggested that I do this and it has worked very well).

Me: M, sometimes I worry that I won’t be able to do this well enough - that I will give ppl false hope - that ppl will feel that I am trying to be something that I am not. I know, I know, my ego again.

M: Child, hear my voice and know my love for you. Don’t worry about getting it all right. You are getting too far ahead of yourself. Focus on the love. Focus on your heart opening. (I felt my energy shift I was buzzing with love and knowingness - the best feeling!) Yes. This is your place of power. You do not question when you are in this place. Soon you will remain in the vibration. It is only a matter of time.

Me: What about reaching “the many?”

M: You don’t need to worry. Those who are supposed to find you will. You will be carried. It will come in waves - never pushing you too far. Dive into the flow (this was a feeling). Focus on your health. Your connection. Serving, and Joy.

Me: Why don’t you act as a mediary like in the books I have read? (As far as I can tell I am talking directly to people who have died, and to guides/angels, etc)

M: You have a direct connection. You don’t need me in that way.

Me: Who gives me the psychic info?

M: You are receiving that information from your sitter’s guides. (I started to ask questions about psychic info without words) It is given to you in blocks of information. It allows you to read their energies and help guide them. It also lets them see based on their actions and experiences now what would be the likely result to come. It gives them the opportunity for change. It provides them with insight. In some ways you are acting as a channel of love, directly from their guides.

(I asked about the healings and “guides”) No, the angels don’t only facilitate healings, they are often guides as well.

(Not sure what I asked here) Those are the energies you are tapping into.

It was time to call the person for my next session.